Intermission: Many a mile to freedom

Chronology and philosophy

I am living through interesting times at the moment. Full blog service should be restored soon. I plan to see Chloe next week and will relate our adventures afterwards.

Meanwhile, a word about chronology and other things. The events appearing in this blog are my recollections of real happenings. Names and locations may be changed and conversations and activities cannot be precisely remembered but there is an essential truth at the core of every episode here and that satisfies me. What I say happened, happened. Even amusing details are true.

Some of these events took place a very long time ago; others this year. Episodes one to four are in order. Episodes five and six should be transposed. Episode nine should be placed between seven and eight.

Episode eight was written and posted the day after the events described so is closest to reality and still seems fresh.

Forthcoming episodes will record events earlier this year with Laura. While my trajectory now seems obvious, it was Laura who made me understand that kink is not just something I am attracted to, it is who I am. It is the difference between standing outside, looking through the window and being in the room and feeling as if you belong. It means not feeling guilty because you have a sex drive and impulses that may not be understood by everyone. This discovery has had massive implications for me and I am still working through them.

Domination and submission go to the very core of our personalities and what we are as human beings. Yes, this is about sex, but mostly it is about connecting with other people in far deeper, more fulfilling and maybe even more frightening ways than many are prepared to do. It requires inner self-confidence and a trust in partners that pushes boundaries. It demands total selflessness and a willingness to surrender completely. It is a journey I am just beginning. It is simultaneously terrifying and something I am eager to embrace with every cell in my body.

You will never realise your best destiny through the avoidance of fear.